Jealousy rears it's ugly head

I've been spoiled in the past. I have experienced the joy of complete trust and security. To talk about our feelings on a daily basis so that there is no confusion, and to be treated like the only girl in his whole world that mattered.

Now I must deal with my greatest flaw. A defect that shatters my otherwise laid-back personality. It is a character flaw that will ultimately lead to my downfall if left unchecked and uncontrolled. A flaw most girls are subject to. You know what I'm talking about, jealousy. I perceive jealousy as being emotionally immature. I know that my jealousy is unjustified and petty. My imagination works overtime to create stories of infidelity and violations of trust. People have always said to me, "trust him until he gives you a reason not too". It's a phrase I've constantly battled with. This distrust and suspicion stems from my childhood. My parents' marital troubles have made me anxious and fearful of my own future love life. But having witnessed the consequences of their actions I vowed not to permit myself to follow in their footsteps. I will not allow the repercussions of my parent's failed marriage to effect my happiness. I'll try my hardest to love my boyfriend to the best of my ability and beyond. His happiness, our happiness, is important to me.